Living on an island for 2 months has really opened my eyes. The sound of the coquis, waves, and breeze calms me leaving me to my endless thoughts. My problems seem so small. There’s this constant anxiety running through me, not knowing if I am doing enough, or if I will ever be good enough to reach my dreams. I admit to not trying my best sometimes, and not pushing myself hard enough. Then I realized, it is okay to not be where you want to be or know how to get there. One of my favorite quotes by  F. Scott Fitzgerald says,

“For what it’s worth… it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you’ve never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start over again.”

Your morals, your dreams, your personality, your aspirations, all of it makes you who you are. Remember to take a step back from your life and look at the bigger picture, there is only one life. In this one life I hope you are proud of who is staring back at you. I hope you take in the moments that take your breathe away. Don’t let the anxiety of life distract you. It’s never too late to change yourself into the person you want to be, the person you will be proud of. If you are not yet that person, have hope you will be. If you ever find yourself being someone other than the person you want to live your life being, be brave enough to start over, and become the person you’ve always wanted to be. There is time. You can do it. It will be okay. Breathe.

A photoset of me boating and island hopping yesterday:

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I cannot tell you how many times I have sat on the edge of my bed thinking about my life, all the missed opportunities and what if’s. When the idea of spending my summer in Puerto Rico first came up I thought it was crazy. There was no way I was leaving home for an entire summer. The thoughts of missing out on summer nights with my friends was killing me. I didn’t want to miss out on all the memories. I eventually realized from friends drilling it into my head, that I couldn’t miss an opportunity to live on an island for a summer. There was so much to do like learn to speak better Spanish, see the island, surround myself with culture, maybe even learn how to make some flan! After many long nights of thinking I made the decision, I was going to Puerto Rico for a summer and I was going to make the best of it. The scariest part of it all was being out of my comfort zone. Leaving a city to an island is a big difference.

Today makes a month of being here and I cannot tell you how many beautiful sites I have got to see and people I have gotten to meet. In all, I am here to tell you the rest of your life is being shaped right now. By the dreams you chase. The choices you make. And the person you decide to be. You will never be as young as you are right now, so please please please take every opportunity. It may not always be the best, but you might end up with more than you expected. By the way, Puerto Rico is better than I imagined. Grateful to not have one more missed opportunity.